The Yellow Wallpaper — Page 13

他说除了我自己，没有人能帮我走出困境，我必须运用意志力和自制力，不能让任何愚蠢的幻想控制我。

He says no one but myself can help me out of it, that I must use my will and self-control and not let any silly fancies run away with me.

有一件令人欣慰的事，那就是孩子健康快乐，不必住在这间贴着可怕壁纸的育儿室里。

There's one comfort, the baby is well and happy, and does not have to occupy this nursery with the horrid wallpaper.

如果我们没有住这里，那个可怜的孩子就要住了！多么幸运的逃脱！我绝不会让我那敏感的小孩住在这样的房间里，无论如何都不会。

If we had not used it that blessed child would have! What a fortunate escape! Why, I wouldn't have a child of mine, an impressionable little thing, live in such a room for worlds.

我以前从没想过这一点，但幸好约翰把我留在这里。我比婴儿更能忍受这一切，你看。

I never thought of it before, but it is lucky that John kept me here after all. I can stand it so much easier than a baby, you see.

当然，我再也不会跟他们提这件事了——我太聪明了——但我依然时刻注意着它。

Of course I never mention it to them any more,—I am too wise,—but I keep watch of it all the same.

那张壁纸里有些东西，只有我知道，永远只有我知道。

There are things in that paper that nobody knows but me, or ever will.

在那外层图案的背后，那些模糊的形状每天都变得更加清晰。

Behind that outside pattern the dim shapes get clearer every day.

那形状始终如一，只是数量非常多。

It is always the same shape, only very numerous.

那形状像一个女人弯着腰，在那图案背后爬行。我一点都不喜欢这个。我在想——我开始觉得——我希望约翰能带我离开这里！

And it is like a woman stooping down and creeping about behind that pattern. I don't like it a bit. I wonder—I begin to think—I wish John would take me away from here!

和约翰谈论我的病情真的很难，因为他太聪明了，而且他非常爱我。

It is so hard to talk with John about my case, because he is so wise, and because he loves me so.

但我昨晚还是试了。

But I tried it last night.

那是月光皎洁的夜晚。月光从四周照射进来，就像阳光一样。

It was moonlight. The moon shines in all around, just as the sun does.